Have you been missing out lately?
Why? Are you sad? Angry? Upset? Or you just can’t explain what’s happening in your mind?
it’s okay... it’s okay not to be okay.
As long as you are aware of what is happening within yourself. Don’t worry, it’ll pass. Don’t forget to acknowledge your emotions, it is the way of the universe telling you that something great will happen.
Do you believe that you are wonderfully made? Cause I am. Because I believe that you are created & God has a wonderful plan for you. But here is the thing...
First, we need to learn through our experience. We’ll cry, laugh and the cycle repeat.
We’ll face problems, dilemmas, anxieties and fear. And that is a normal challenges we’re facing. If I will be asked: “Do you want to live without problems?”
I think it will be hard cause my answer will be biased.
Try to ask yourself the same question I ask to myself. It’s hard right? But let me help you realizing my own thoughts and experiences.
Being a medical student is not easy. You have to work hard for it, you have to stay late at night reading all those ‘bible-called of medstudents’ until you understand and memorize them. You need not just to memorize all of the medical terms but to understand them because analyzing is what more important to us. It’s easy to say “Kaya ko to’” but when the time comes your emotions are out of our hands you will just sit back there and wait for the time when will you be okay.
Whenever I miss someone or even when I’m not okay. I always want to let those good memories dwell in my mind then when that situations get out of my hands I get doomed. I always put myself in dangerous situations (mentally) and ended up attacking my own anxieties.
They get busy and I have no one to talk to... whenever I can’t get out of the house because my parents won’t allow me to have my own life because I’m still studying and have no capability to take care of myself.... and that makes me to realize 2 perspectives.
Its either I will look at the bright side or the dark side.
And everytime I see myself in that kind of situation I always remind myself with this quote:
• The stress we are facing doesn’t come from the problems, it comes on how the way we respond to it •
It sucks when I want to see someone or do something and I have no other way but to wait for it. I need to be calm and be patient to wait for that time or else I might hurt myself.
(Again) I easily get tired especially when I’m not mentally okay.
I tend to sleep because maybe that is my ’comfort zone’ to get out of the situation. I became unproductive and lazy. Sometimes I tend to be angry out of the blue because I know I’m suppressing my emotions. And I always ask myself... is this worth it? The painful experiences I am facing day by day...
In my young age... I still have a lot of things to learn. And I know God is always guiding and protecting me.
But why does it need to be painful? All of this distractions made me become unproductive to the things I needed to finish. It’s really hard when you are away from your strength.
now you see, the things that you’ve been reading is the DARK SIDE.
But let me welcome you to the BRIGHTER SIDE.
I want to say: “God, can you let me see how gracefully broken I will become if I follow your footsteps?”
BUT Are you brave enough to say this?
Can you now see the difference?
when we choose the DARK SIDE nothings happens. We just get back to the cycle of hating ourselves, we tend to be unproductive and the like.
NOTHING HAPPENS WHEN WE CHOOSE THE PATH OF NEGATIVITY!
But when we choose the BRIGHTER SIDE. We start asking:
Can this problem help me to find myself again?
We always find ourselves being out of our track because we are just human beings that will always gets tired when our body needed to. AND THAT IS TOTALLY OKAY.
Because when that happens, it is our soul telling us that we need to wake up & save ourselves.
We start to call him in His name and we pray for guidance.
When we put ourselves in our own blackhole, nothing will happen. but if we learn how to be patient and calm we can think more clearly because you are giving a capability to someone to understand you, and that is YOU.
It’s not easy to pick yourself up alone.
But we need to do that because we want to become a better person.
Your families, friends and partner will always be there, but not all the time. It’s kinda‘ selfish to say but when no one is around, you yourself is the only one you have.
But before you learn how to stand up repetitively, you need first to develop yourself from the mistakes and pain you’ve face.
With God’s guidance and strength you will achieve it.
Because of that painful experiences, we start to reflect and build ourselves.
For some, it is the reason of their death (attempting to commit suicide) but for those who want to save more lives pick themselves together and help someone who needed their help.
You’ve been in their shoes in the past time that’s why you know the feeling and you start to create empathy with that person.
Without experiencing problems, I guess we will not grow.
we will not become the person God wanted us to be.
Now, let me ask you again: “Do you want to live without problems?”
KTip: When everything gets out of your hand. Pray. You may not see him, but he always hear our prayers. Learn to wait and you will be blessed.
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